Testing One, Two, Three.

Entry 1. This is day three of my weight loss .. I don't want to say attempt because that implies failure and.. I CAN'T fail at this. Lately I've been feeling 'Just like mom.' Not in a good way.. I find myself bitter and easily frustrated, or I will notice my movements are constricted. Mom died at 52... her grand daughter wasn't even in kindergaten... She had Heidi when she was 26. I'm 28 and I don't see any children in my immeadiate future... but the average life span of my generation is 100.. That's what I would say.. My mother was the third youngest of thirteen children.. the second to die. Now I'm not saying my mother died of neglect, though towards the end she was on so many medications a healthy die was the last thing on her mind.. My mother tried diets, wait loss plans. Excercise.. everything but gastric bypass. She wasn't a lazy woman.. she worked two, sometimes three jobs. She..was not lazy.. But I am. That needs to change. So This isn't a weight loss blog..this is a Quest to save and prolong my life. I can't fail or the world will end.. at least for me. Too Early. I have to live a long and happy life, for my mother and for myself. I've been catching myself saying things aren't 'fail' or "never easy" so I said to myself "So What?" If like was easy dropping fifty pounds wouldn't be considered a success story..it would be ordinary. So what if I can't find batteries for the remote, the VCR doesn't want to work with the tv.. Too Fucking bad. On Saturday I got up and I stumbled upon a faded VHS tape. Richard Simmons Sweatin to the Oldies. My mom loved these tapes, she had the whole set and loved Richard Simmons, I used to do the tapes with her. At the time I set it aside and got to thinking about it.. then I decided I'm gonna use it! So what if its dorky? I was so excited! I..hooked up the tv and the VCR/DVD combo..but I didn't have a remote! So I fiddled with the menu, nothing. I found the old Phillips universal remote.. it didn't work.. Each step made me frustrated and I wanted to say fuck it but I didn't, I couldn't. Called Phillips, got the code, programmed the remote, turned on the tv and.... the VCR wouldn't work.. I could have cried.. sat down, moped for a minute then remembered, mom had two.. Bless that woman for her love of prerecorded entertainment. Second one worked like a charm and after all the rummaging through boxes, lifting trunks and putting things away I was already bushed..but I did twenty minutes worth. I decided to set up Whitney's Wii, and Xbox in the livingroom, hopeful she wouldn't get mad (she wasn't) and started Wii Fit +. Its great, just from two 2 minute yoga lessons I could feel a differences.. My Wii Fit body age was 34! Not good.. but Sunday I went back and did 10 minutes of excercises (Each one is approx 2-3 minutes) and Whitney came home. That was when I found Just Dance 3! The thing I like about Wii Fit and Just Dance? They both have work out programs and goals. Just Dance 3 only has a 7-Day schedule but Wii fit let's me set up to a year. I picked six months and a twenty pound drop(That's the highest it would go). Now its day three. I haven't touched Sweatin to the Oldies because Just dance calculates my progress, but I do plan to mix it up. Tomorrow I'm excited to try Strength Training.. So that's where I stand right now, this is more a recap for myself so I can track my progress and I know I'm wordy, so to anyone who read all of this, thank you. Activity for today: Just Dance: 6+ songs. Goal is 500 'Sweat Points' actual amount done 2700+ (That's the last time I think Sweat is a routine.. damn you nonstop.. It was good to push myself as far as I could go though!) Food eaten today: 2 Cups of Peaches and Cream Oatmeal. 1 Poached egg. Future Plan for the day: I wanna make a gameboy dress when I'm skinny.